Your very consciousness is actually object free. The path of yoga is any and all means by which you discover the ambiance of your primacy and then learn to trust it absolutely.
Consciousness, consciousness of a world, and awareness of experience, have come about quite involuntarily. At the risk of offending a handful of New Age authors and a few billion reincarnationists, you had nothing to do with the primacy of felt experience being foisted upon you.
Though it may be an unusual perspective, one could say that all humans suffer from Stockholm Syndrome (feelings of trust or affection felt in many cases of kidnapping or hostage-taking by a victim toward a captor).
You’re the unwitting victim of conscious awareness and have quite surreptitiously and without express permission adapted to this nefarious heist with sufficient agreeability that you think you are actually enjoying all this.
But lo and behold you will likely find more than a few reasons to begin to mistrust experience, or suffer the many indignities of being a creature in a world, and wisely seek somehow to suffer less. This effort will fail of course, but you don’t know that yet, you still have a lot of living to do so you can keep on trying.
Obviously, one consumes one’s experiential allotment with each passing moment, but we hope there is sufficient time remaining to get somewhere where we might suffer less, downward dog anyone?
In a nutshell (best place to be for us nuts), whatever this is, implicate, explicate, convergent, divergent, fated or novel, it is doing itself down to the quark which suggests that you have no role to play in being who and how you are.
Such is the nature of impulse. If you ignore the presence, the arising, the hypnotism that is impulse, you are fated to respond to it in habitual ways which necessarily limits the flux and wobble of what you perceive and intuit to be true about you.
So, from the perspective of applied yoga, first learn to attend to the streaming and quite nuanced presence of impulse before you go off all half-cocked with your clever ideas and opinions about everything.
Get to know impulse (despite the distance) as intimately as you can, we’ll explore applied asceticism in our next post.